my poor boy who will be turning 3yrs old in feb'22nd told me if i want a baby, i can take his Mr.Bean's bear instead and he doesn't want a real baby in my tummy. how hurt it was when he told me that. i feel hurt not becos he doesnt want a new baby but i was hurt becos he was so scared that i will never loved him anymore and becos of his insecurities had cause him all the trouble to think that he will never love a new baby in future.
i tried explainning things to him and told him that he will become a big brother if i had another baby but he kept on insisting that he will be my only baby and started to cry. the more i see him being so insecure the more i feel i am not ready for a baby yet....it will be my 4th baby!
but God's wish....i was tested positive just two days after my son's offered his bear to me as my new baby.
the minute i know i was pregnant....i taught i supposed to be happy but instead i was lost at words.....i told my husband that i started to feel nausea which i had not feel it at all the last few minutes before i tested with my tester! i was asking alot of questions to myself! i was not stable and cos myself to vomit out whatever i had for dinner.
i cant face my favourite son. how am i going to tell him that i am pregnant? will he be offering another soft toys to replace my baby?
the other two older girls were very happy to hear that but i do not want to spill the news to my son yet! why?i know this will be over anyway! well, maybe becos i had been breastfeeding him everynite! the bonding was so strong and i love him so much that i was so worried to hurt him as i will had to stop breastfeeding.... my only chance to be close to him privately...during daytime i spent most of my time with the other older girls.
i couldn't sleep that nite and my stomach was like full of air roaming around inside. i still breastfeed him on that nite and i know it will be over soon and also to start all over again with a newborn baby is tiring!
i hope my new born will have the same character like my son who is easy going and happy all the time!
thank God! hope everything goes on smoothly as today will be my 1st day to wean off my son from my breast!
3 comments:
congradualation !!
he he
meery christmas
ayo~don't think so much la..
when the baby is out...he'll know it..maybe he will love his ''brother'' or ''sister'' to be another person which can play with him..XD
MERRY X"MAS too~
thks my 2 nieces. how r u? i mean yi yi! had ur mom stop her nagging yet? so study hard yea!
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